Have you ever watched documentaries of haunting before? Well, I remember watching Celebrity horror stories in Bio channel a year back. There was once particular story that haunted me. It was the story of the actress who acted in the movie Amityville Horror. She shared a story of how the director made the exact replica of the house for the movie and somewhat the actors and actress felt that they were living the horror story in their daily lives as they shot it in the replica. Well, that kinda sparked off an idea for me. What if my room was a replica of what I am inside of my mind? So, I thought hard and figured that the first thing that I am inside is mad. Not to mention, my whole life seem to be that way.
I do have a confession to make. I took a break from the madness when work started to get hectic and I was too involved to note the madness in my own life. Madness in work is nothing unusual for me but when it over takes your individual life, you are in for a big surprise. Your life becomes a twilight zone. Irrationality takes over and you start reminding yourself to pay attention to the abnormal things in one's life.
For example, I have spent quite a fair bit of my life studying dream interpretation and symbolism behind it. An avid fan of Jung, I have read most of his papers and even studied sleep patterns. Having done all this, I came to understand that dreams are a way of reminding us of things we failed to see or have not given the attention it needs. Lately, I have been too tired to dream and sleep right through. Had not given myself the chance to dream and reflect. Now, here is the scary bit, when you don't pay attention, the Universe has a way of showing you things and lately, it has been doing that. There were instances where I converse with people and I have this strange feeling that I am not conversing with the person per sa. Or, I would meet someone who says something out of the context which becomes a nugget of wisdom for me. When this becomes part of my reality, I really stop to think. I can't go on like this. If the Universe has something important to tell me then, I should take some time to think about it.
I am making a conscious effort now to take sometime to reflect. That includes blogging and penning down my thoughts in a dairy. One way to remind myself is to make what is inside visible outside. Perhaps one day I may just haunt my own room!!!
