Have you ever sat in an empty hall or in a huge living room and hear someone play the piano? It is an uncontrollable feeling as if something hollow has just been filled with a substance or a spirit that occupies that corner of that space except that its presence could be felt everywhere. It is interesting to note that it is not the music but the hollowness that accentures the beauty of the music. Try hearing the same music being played in a crowded space and the effect is gone. Sometimes you wonder, it is just a space, there is nothing in it. What can you do with nothingness? But to me that nothingness is no thing but the mere presence of being at the moment. Living at that moment without anticipation or feeling any form of extreme emotion.
I came to a realization that no matter what I do, the world is not going to stop rotating. Neither are the people around me going to stop working. Work is always going to be there, awaiting for me. No matter what people tell me about taking time off to relax and not think about work, I will do the exact opposite. It is just like telling someone not to think about the white elephant with pink pokka dots. This then becomes a problem. How do you take a break from work when it constitutes ¾ of your life? How can you break away for a while from all the relationships that you foster when in nature you are a social workaholic?
That is exactly what I am doing now. Taking a break, does not mean just doing nothing. It is doing something that breaks the process of what you usually do. It is a break from routine and creating another routine You can’t run away from anything but you can work around it. This moment where you break the routine and create another is what I called hollowness. It is the small gaps in a jar called life.
Our life is filled up with so many huge occasions or events like boulders. We have plenty of gaps to fill. It is these gaps that reminds us that no matter how busy we are, there is always time for us to do things. It is sure way to regain your sense of sanity.
1 comment:
profound.
i think that nothingness in itself does not exist [or i havent found it yet], what i think exists is our ability to create something different - to take a break from our current routines.
however, i do not think there is anything hollow about it
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