A rather uncomprehensible week

Okay I am writing this entry after a little after midnight. I have training at St Marg's again tmr. Though I should be looking forward for tmr as I always have loved St Marg's girls and have been proud to be one. Whatever happened for the past few days have been rather puzzling for me and thus the need to write and clear my mind.

I am in the midst of holding on and moving forward. A few days ago I was hoping to reconnect a broken connection with an old friend cum enemy but apparently he has forgotten all we have been through. Not only the animosity but also the friendship I had with him. Side tracking now. I am watching my best friend's wedding and as you would know, in the end she gives up her best friend and moves on.. So sad and touching... sigh... Anyway back to what I was saying I was looking for a closure and because he did not respond to me I presume that it is all over, our animosity and friendship. Just like a memory I was his memory and he was mine and there is all to it. Somethings were never meant to be.

However things in current reality is also going around in circles. My best and close friends and trustful ones never fail to be there for me when I need them. However I just realise that a few of my other friends have been acting really weird and I really mean weird. They have been distant and sadly not as warm as they have been. Their hostility puzzles me. What have I done to them? Or is it my imagination? Have I been reading too much into their behaviour? I never know I will just wait and see.

Now the other dilemma, should I move forward. There was an interesting story that I left behind last winter. A tale that might have blossom if I made the right move and not misinterpretated what happened. A story that was not known to others but just one. She had asked me to restore the story but I am in doubts. It may be too late but one never know. That winter was a cold yet slightly warm. But I chosen to ignore the warmth prefering the cold. I have re edited the story I just have to wait and see the continuation.

Well it seems confusing rite? Well don't worry I am as confuse as i write but only a few know the reasons for the confusion so let it be and just live in the present.