In a world of your own

I sometimes wonder what I would do when I am absolutely free?I mean having lead a hectic life it is surely in its most discomfort that I am in when there is nothing much to do. Then again you reflect. Is there really nothing much to do? I mean what if there was plenty of things to do and yet you are looking and yet not seeing? Having lead a hectic life I feel sometimes that one can fail to realize that what one is actually nurturing is their material asserts and skills and not one beyond that. I remember those days where I had six months of vacation and all I did was to work out and seat in one corner and read. I actually finished a whole sets of books and just in one seating I could read two books. I remember how it felt. Somewhat though I was not earning money I felt good. It was the gaining of knowledge that filled my soul. I was not reading something because of I was forced to read but I read out of passion. The feeling was good. It was electrifying

In fact recently when I fought with my mother and was not talking to her I actually read and it felt good. I miss filling up my soul with knowledge and fantasy. It was a world which I could dwell in and feel spiritual satisfied. I never found the satisfaction even when I read while I was working. I suppose I just read to develop my world. A world that develop subconsciously. I like that. And i think I want to do it again. At least when I still have the time...