I am not going to start off the normal way of reflecting on what has happened in 2013. It is about two hours away from New Year and I am in my room, on my bed, working on my SOW (Scheme of work) while my phone receives msgs from my diva friend and two guys from Melbourne and my colleagues. My family is in the hall watching a movie and my brother came into my room asking me twice why I am not out celebrating New Year.
Why am I not celebrating New Year like everyone else I know? Has work taken up so much of my time?
Yes and No. I know I have work to do. But I want to do work. Work that allows myself to be truly absorbed. I am typing my Lit SOW. I am copying what I have already done in my notebook. I have sketched out the year's plan. But to me, it is not mere copy and paste. As I type in the SOW, I am modifying it. You know like when you do pottery (which I did learn while teaching at Teck WHye Sec). It is not as simple as it looks. When doing pottery, you hand molds the clay while the leg steps on the machine. Sometimes you don't know what you are going to make but the machine just goes on and you sculpt the art work. It is not knowing what you are doing but just working on it. You are just improvising on it, making it more define and refine. Yet, you have no idea how it will look. The process is very exciting. I know most teachers may think I am mad, maybe I am. But sometimes in life, it is how we do something that makes us think about answers that we are looking for.
Yes, I am looking for something now in my life. I don't know what it is. But I know I am missing something. I don't want to put a finger on it cause I enjoy the process. Hang on, I don't even know what the process is. But I am going through the process.
What am I talking about? I don't know. I am still in the process!
No comments:
Post a Comment